June 6, 2016
Had to let Jake go this afternoon. He was my pal for almost 34 years. But over the weekend he had crossed the line from just being terminally sick to being downright miserable. Last December he was a bit overweight at a little over 600 grams. Monday he was down to 303 grams. Watched the vet put him to sleep. Took about two minutes to go from awake to a quiet deep sleep. Absolutely the hardest thing I have EVER had to do.
I honestly can't remember the last time I cried. Not even over the loss of my parents. Leaving my last girl friend was more celebratory than loss. But this... One big giant empty hole. A different kind of quiet in the house. The wrong kind of peace.
A delicious six pack of 7.5% designer beer helped me spend the evening in quiet commemoration. I sat outside and listened to the quiet of the neighborhood and the backyard birdsong for a while. Then I filled the glass up again. (No, I didn’t drink all six of them.)
Seeing the empty cage this morning was hard, but I think I have to leave it there for a while. I think seeing the empty space where it was is probably gonna be worse. Probably prove to be a good place for a plant of some kind, eventually.
(- sigh -)
Had to let Jake go this afternoon. He was my pal for almost 34 years. But over the weekend he had crossed the line from just being terminally sick to being downright miserable. Last December he was a bit overweight at a little over 600 grams. Monday he was down to 303 grams. Watched the vet put him to sleep. Took about two minutes to go from awake to a quiet deep sleep. Absolutely the hardest thing I have EVER had to do.
I honestly can't remember the last time I cried. Not even over the loss of my parents. Leaving my last girl friend was more celebratory than loss. But this... One big giant empty hole. A different kind of quiet in the house. The wrong kind of peace.
A delicious six pack of 7.5% designer beer helped me spend the evening in quiet commemoration. I sat outside and listened to the quiet of the neighborhood and the backyard birdsong for a while. Then I filled the glass up again. (No, I didn’t drink all six of them.)
Seeing the empty cage this morning was hard, but I think I have to leave it there for a while. I think seeing the empty space where it was is probably gonna be worse. Probably prove to be a good place for a plant of some kind, eventually.
(- sigh -)
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